Welcome to My Mind

I've decided to create a new journal for myself. Comment if you're interested in knowing what the user name is.

We traveled on Gotham Road into Wood Pile Field, past the Tree of Sanctuary, down and back up the steps of Maya into Baskerville, under Com's Dungeon and onto Pathos Angeles. The expedition begins...

Today is a very special day: my 1st Anniversary with my mate, Kashi! ^o^
Can anyone say, "Dinner, a movie and rough sex"? x3
Ciao.

Ten more days and it'll be a YEAR for Kashi and I! Last night, I asked him if cute foxy Corey could be our pet, and he's taking it into consideration. And tomorrow night we're going to see Kottonmouth Kings LIVE! :D

Rinkovsky, quit adding false/confidential information on my WikiFur page.

Drama and internal conflicts. They just don't make a great pair. I have to make it all stop.

Heya guys! Sorry I haven't posted anything major in a while; writer's block sucks. Which is why I may start participating in some "Writer's Block" essays, a notion inspired by Corey and his journal (thanks foxy!). Nothing exponential has been going on lately, which is another reason why I haven't been updating. Just been hanging out with Kashi and the gang, making friends and acquaintances on F4L, and researching interests on Wiki. However, I can tell that this year is going to be very interesting and even fun, because I've got dreams and goals to pursue.

Tomorrow, I'm going to call Paresh and Amber at the Red Roof Inn to see if I can get a job as a housekeeper there. Also sometime in the near future, I'm going to be meeting up with staff at Union Alternative High to see if I can get enrolled there next school year. I'm gradually becoming more and more interested in paleontology, physical cosmology and marine biology (among other career interests), and so I'm doing my research and planning ahead for college. Kashi and I are planning on attending a few cons this year as well, but that will also depend on how much money we have saved up and everything.

I've been 18 now for four months. April 9 is just under two months away. That day will be a very, very special one. ^^

Foxwaffle over and out.

What's everyone doing for Christmas and such? Once Kashi gets back from Kansas, we're going to a furry Christmas party this evening over at Wolfie's. On the 23rd, I'm with family on my mom's side. On Christmas Eve and Day, I should be with my sister, her husband and his family. Hope everyone has fun during these coming holidays! ^^

Concerning jobs, I'm still looking. I hate the fact that our economy is falling apart. The good news is that Blue's mate just recently sent me a professional letter of recommendation via mail — thank you so much for that!

Take care everybody! I'll update laters.

If not at Tulsa Airsoft, I might be getting a job at either Taco Bell right next door or even the IHOP near Matt's and Casey's! I'm pretty excited because I haven't worked in a year and I'm looking forward to a stable income for once. Then I'll finally be able to afford my own food, and eventually a nice place to live, a car, and a Husky puppy! ^^

Dream/Nightmare of Tuesday, Novemeber 18, 2008

I was at a store. I'm not sure if I worked there or if I killed anybody. I remember that I did something and then the cops were after me. I tried to fight back, but with no success. I was sentenced to prison; for how many years, I'm not certain. I was going to the same prison Kashi was serving time at. I remember asking him questions and meeting old friends of his, getting food and riding fast in a vehicle apparently made for prisoners; the thing is, Kashi's friends were in possession of the vehicle.

I remember one of the last times I saw Kashi in the nightmare. I was still asking him questions and then he had to go back to prison (since he told me that around 50 hours were required per week, which made no sense). I was by a swimming pool and a disgusted young boy pointed out that I had urinated onto the ground. I looked down and saw yellow urine running on the ground and mixing with the water. It was very odd because I didn't do it voluntarily.

The way to get to the police station was by going to one of the A-frames at Oklacon, which was the first step. I remember that I left my scary yet beloved pet "gelatin" lizard that had a thing for biting me, as well as my backpack and other things I was going to bring with me at the store or in Jeff's vehicle. There are two alternate realities concerning how I got the lizard: 1) I found it at my sister's place, 2) I bought it from the store. I also recall being in a public restroom or two.

Then the real shit goes down. I was in a hotel, and I was usually somebody else. I remember having a dream and then waking up, still in a dream, before waking up for real. In my dream in a dream, I dreamt that that I was in a hotel room and some creepy guy in black was outside on one of the side windows, staring at me. I woke up, still in the hotel room, and told everybody else in the room with me about the dream. Not too long after, somebody gave me news which made chills go down my spine: The same guy I described was downstairs, outside, talking with someone.

I had a feeling that someone else was fucking with my head as well, but I'm not sure how I knew. I knew that it was a female killer. She was mysterious and anonymous, and she had other people (like the front desk man) give messages to me for her. One of her messages that I can remember was that she was going to kill my family (I'm guessing the people in the room with me) at a certain time if I didn't kill them first. I remember running like mad all over the hotel, trying to find these motherfuckers who were threatening my family as well as myself while trying to run and hide. You can never hide from her. The time was almost up and I was on my way back to the room to see my family. That's all I can remember.

I constantly, sometimes unreasonably ask too much of my friends and family.
I ask for food. I ask for cigarettes. I ask for money. I asked to be watched on Fur Affinity when, truthfully, there's not exactly anything I've submitted thus far that's worth looking at. I need to get a job and start writing more or something.
I apologize.

Yeah, I'm a little late posting a new entry about Oklacon, I know. Let me put it to you like this: Compared to RCFM and what I've heard about other furry conventions, it was the best fucking one. Ever. Don't get me wrong, RCFM was the bomb, but Oklacon. Oh, man. I saw old friends, made new ones, and met a lot of awesome people as well as several amazing artists. There were a lot of fun things to do, both indoor and outdoor. The Sub-Level 03 concert, the dance, the campfire, hanging out and getting drunk with Jeff Goode and friends, everything. It was all a blast, and I miss it dearly. At least it's comforting to know that there's always next year! ^^

One more week until my eighteenth birthday. Hoorays!
Thanks to Kashi's mom, we're definitely going to Oklacon!
Still no sign of alien spacecraft over Alabama. Huh. Weird.

In other news, after a few days of hardcore searching and worrying, I finally have found my mobile phone. Inside a couch. Talk about the phrase, "Of all places." In any case, I'm a happy foxydragongecko now. ^^

It was a special day two days ago. It marked our six-month quasi-anniversary. Matt and Casey took Kashi and I out to eat and we all chillaxed for the rest of the night. Kashi, you're the best dragon and mate this fox could ever have. We've come a long way — you've definitely and exponentially helped change me, as well as shape me into who I am now. I love you with all of my heart and I always will. Guys, you're my best friends by far, hands down. Thank you all so much for being there for me, as I am here for you. Same goes for all of my other good friends.

Unfortunately, Kashi and I won't be able to see Nightwish live in concert since they evidently cancelled and we wouldn't have the money to anyway, but other good times are on their way this month, such as my birthday, my mate's, and us quite possibly going to Oklacon! Operation Bulldog vs. Corey is still being overlooked and whatnot.

I heard about what happened to you, Darzi. I've always considered you as an awesome person as well as a friend, and I want you to know that I'm here for you as well. Please don't hesitate to give me a call anytime or to ask for a favor.

Things I need to work and improve on include doing better in school, getting a job and, eventually, a vehicle.

Mommy's flown across the ocean
Leaving just a memory
Bible sitting at her bedside
Mommy, why must you be so angry?
Mommy, if you just could only see.
All in all it was just a brick in the wall.
All in all it was all just bricks in the wall.

Daddy's always in his bedroom
Leaving just a memory
Snapshot in the family album
Daddy, what else did you leave for me?
Daddy, you were never there for me.
All in all it was just a brick in the wall.
All in all it was all just bricks in the wall.

I want to start a debate. I want people to THINK. So I ask you this: Do you believe in reptilians and that they are in control of things?

If you don't know what reptilians are, then you probably haven't been much of a conspiracy theorist or part of the extraterrestrial scene like I am. Reptilians, also known as reptoids or lizard people, are wonderful things. They are a race of intelligent, powerful beings, and are far more superior than us. They are the masterminds behind our government and its mind control. They abduct, eat, rape, and sometimes take the form of humans. Of course, you know, not all reptilians are all that bad.

Yeah, I bet that the majority of people reading this are thinking that I'm as crazy as David Icke (even though, to the contrary, he, along with my best friend, have opened my eyes to the obvious truth), but that's not the point. The point is that I want you to decide for yourselves what you believe is true and what is not. I'm only an opinionated listener.

Think about this: Why does our government make such a big deal about the legalization of marijuana or same-sex marriage? It's not because of the intoxication. It's not because of mainstream religion. It's because our government doesn't want us to be open-minded. It's because it wants to have as much control over us as it possibly can. Why?

Come on, people. Think outside the goddamn box. You know you want to, but fear, you know, it holds you down. Fear is a natural, instinctive feeling, but it can also be used as a tool to dominate and control. There's that word again, CONTROL. You know, I've always been kind of a rebel. Independence is what I sought and now it's what I've got. If you think about it, though, there's always some kind of catch involved.

I want you to think because I want you to live. A lot of bad shit is going to happen in the next few years unless a solution is found. The ever-increasing global warming problem, the threat of martial law, you name it. It's all going to happen if you let it happen. Not only think, but act as well!

A name is a part of one's identity. To a lot of people, their names are incredibly important in their lives. Not too long ago, a friend of mine changed his name as a way to, respectively, re-invent himself. I did the same thing almost five months ago, and yet, a few individuals are still calling me by the name Vinny.

Alright, let me break this down for you the best way I can. Vinny was the name of a certain boy who, so to speak, no longer exists. He was the definition of immaturity. Then, everything gradually changed. Vinny died and was reborn into a new light with a new name. My name is Mono. I'm not a disease, I'm one of a kind.

You see, it's therefore logical why it would make me feel uncomfortable when someone calls me Vinny and not Mono or even my real name, Andrew. It's because that old name has a memorable meaning, as all names do, and that meaning isn't anything good or worth mentioning. Of course, I'm not angry. I don't mind when people call me Vinny as long as they try to remember, well, you know. I'm just trying to explain my feelings on the matter.

Another name I definitely wouldn't mind being called is Flame (or Flameryu).

"A Wiccan Ode"
By Andrew D.

Merry meet and merry part
Blessed be your weary heart
For all the days you dance and sing
You gain more love from everything
Now it's time to make the journey
You shall see the Times of Burning
Only time can show the way
Heed and know of what I say
Fearless minds of fortitude
Are what we strive to gain and prove
Let us all join in a circle
'neath the skies of royal purple
As we hold each other's hands
We worship Her, the Earth and Land
We sing our songs and then we dance
Across the moonlight in a trance
Our love is bound to Her, the Goddess
She whom is so pure and modest
Though I stand on the edge of a knife
This is my message, this is my life.

(Note: I am not Wiccan, I'm agnostic — though I am interested in Wicca, paganism, etc.)

If you don't know me, you soon will. May God help us all.
My name is Andrew. I have the perfect mate, Kashi. We're both a little insane.
I've learned that honor, loyalty and integrity are important virtues in life.
I'm going to be 18 in less than 2 months. Yay legal cigarettes!
You could spend all your life trying to figure out how my mind works — with no luck. Sorry.
Nevertheless, I'm a fun guy and a great friend. Play metal with me.
My last words of advice to you for tonight: Don't let the door hit you on the way out. (See subtitle)